{"id":1237,"date":"2020-08-01T16:44:05","date_gmt":"2020-08-01T21:44:05","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.biblionalia.info\/leah\/?p=1237"},"modified":"2020-08-04T14:02:23","modified_gmt":"2020-08-04T19:02:23","slug":"in-expectations-during-the-unexpected","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.biblionalia.info\/leah\/blog\/2020\/08\/01\/in-expectations-during-the-unexpected\/","title":{"rendered":"On Expectations During the Unexpected"},"content":{"rendered":"\n[Written on my phone while lying in bed, because reasons.]\n\n\n\n

I’m a very to-do list and goal-oriented person. I like crossing things off lists. I like checking boxes.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

In mid-March, when everything locked down and I started working from home (which I am very blessed and thankful to be able to do), I made lots of plans. Things I would do with the extra time I gained by not having to be in my car running errands, commuting, etc. Some of them, I did. Some of them got put by the wayside as pandemic anxiety settled in and started to crush all my motivation and creativity.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

In December 2019, I made a 2020 to-do list which I titled The Big List. It hss SCA projects, unfinished things, household goals, finanical milestones, etc. And I can easily divide it into thirds to make sure I’m on track as the year progresses.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I’m not on track.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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The Big List, July 29, 2020. To be on track, I will need to fill in 10 more things before the end of August.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n

I could make a sub-list of 10 things to get done between now and the end of August so I can fill in that second third in the circle, but nothing bad will happen if I don’t. And in two weeks, my son starts first grade via remote learning. I’m still teleworking, but even though I agruably have more time, my creative energy is tapped. I’m lucky if I can finish a book, let alone find one that is capable of capturing my attention.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And it’s okay. I keep telling myself that it’s okay. This too shall pass, even if we have no idea when, or what the world will look like when it does.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

The best I can do is tend to immediate needs – for myself and my family – and be kinder to myself as part of that.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And that means stop looking at this list. Or maybe making a new one with fewer items – like getting vigil and elevation fabric ironed and cut for sewing…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Hang in there, folks. It’ll be okay. We’ll get through this. Be kind. <3<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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