{"id":1303,"date":"2020-09-17T12:04:21","date_gmt":"2020-09-17T17:04:21","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.biblionalia.info\/leah\/?p=1303"},"modified":"2020-09-17T12:04:27","modified_gmt":"2020-09-17T17:04:27","slug":"when-youre-wrong","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.biblionalia.info\/leah\/blog\/2020\/09\/17\/when-youre-wrong\/","title":{"rendered":"When You&#8217;re Wrong"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>Last summer, there was one of those &#8220;tell us about yourself&#8221; SCA memes bouncing around Facebook. This one included how to pronounce your name.<br><br>I filled it out and posted it, using the pronunciation that I had been using since about 2016, while the name was still in the process of being registered.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>The thing is, I had been pronouncing it incorrectly, and by doing so, had perpetuated others in pronouncing it incorrectly. I was wrong, and because I didn&#8217;t know, other people who looked to me as an example were also wrong.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>This post has been a long time coming &#8211; believe me, I know. Every time someone has said my name, either in greeting or introducing me, in the past year and change, I have cringed a little on the inside knowing it was incorrect, but also felt like it wasn&#8217;t the right time to correct them, due to some context or another.<sup class='footnote'><a href='#fn-1303-1' id='fnref-1303-1' onclick='return fdfootnote_show(1303)'>1<\/a><\/sup> Since I was first corrected, I have wanted to do a longer &#8220;I was wrong&#8221; post, but I also wanted to tie it into a larger conversation about being wrong. But it kept getting put off, then forgotten, then remembered whenever someone said my name.  And then I&#8217;d feel guilty about not having done it yet.<sup class='footnote'><a href='#fn-1303-2' id='fnref-1303-2' onclick='return fdfootnote_show(1303)'>2<\/a><\/sup><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>That changes today. Hi. My SCA name is Ouyang Yingzhao, pronounced OH-yawng YING-chow. <a href=\"https:\/\/en.m.wikipedia.org\/wiki\/Pinyin?#Approximation_from_English_pronunciation\">OH like <em>so<\/em>, <strong>not OO<\/strong> like <em>root<\/em><\/a>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I should have written this sooner &#8211; not over a year after being corrected &#8211; and I&#8217;m sorry. It&#8217;s not the fault of the herald that helped me &#8211; they told me how to pronounce it correctly when we decided on the name. I can&#8217;t say for sure how the pronunciation got messed up in my head, but it did, and I am very, very sorry for making and perpetuating this mistake, and thereby not doing right by the Chinese language, its people, and their history.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Why is this such a big deal? It&#8217;s just a name, right? Names are words &#8211; words that are attached to people. And words are powerful. Names are powerful. And this name, this proper noun, is also from a language that I do not speak and a culture that I do not personal identify with. So getting it right matters a lot, and getting it wrong is bad.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>All I can do now is acknowledge the mistake and point it out when my name is mispronounced. I am sorry for not doing this sooner. I will, as always, strive to do better.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>&lt;3<\/p>\n\n\n<div class='footnotes' id='footnotes-1303'><div class='footnotedivider'><\/div><ol><li id='fn-1303-1'> I&#8217;ve tried to retrain my own voice to say it the correct way, and I&#8217;m doing better. 4 years of saying a word one way takes a conscious effort to correct. <span class='footnotereverse'><a href='#fnref-1303-1'>&#8617;<\/a><\/span><\/li><li id='fn-1303-2'> That happens a lot. It&#8217;s weird, and stupid, but it&#8217;s my brain. I&#8217;m working on it. <span class='footnotereverse'><a href='#fnref-1303-2'>&#8617;<\/a><\/span><\/li><\/ol><\/div>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Hi. My SCA name is Ouyang Yingzhao, pronounced OH-yawng YING-chow. 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